Having a hard time. One of the elders and wife contacted me! In fact they knocked on my door and I answered it. We had a long conversation and I am having so many emotions and thoughts I'm not sure where to start. I mostly feel frozen in fear. What do I do now?!
It sounds like today feels a bit heavy because a couple from the cult you left, stalked you and tried to manipulate you to return back into their control and serious and dangerous abuse.
No wonder you feel "frozen in fear". This is a very common reaction to something that triggers your trauma. The first step I recommend is to contact your therapist asap. Or call a DV hotline to talk with someone about the feelings you are having. Professional support when leaving a cult can be such a lifeline.
My concern is that they now know where you live. It may be safe to live in a shelter for a few days or weeks for now, until your body and mind had the chance to calm down a bit more.
You are in charge now. They have no power over you. You have the right to say no and these people are highly manipulative and abusive.
Hi Brownie, I remember your story from several years ago. It really touched me although I never posted. I am so pleased you are away. You were strong to leave and you are strong enough to stay out. Believe in yourself.