Post by karen on Nov 1, 2014 4:57:22 GMT
Hi everyone, I have to share this here because honestly, my family and friends don't quite get how HUGE a victory this is for me today. Here's what happened:
This past summer I was on vacation with my family and I wanted to get my boyfriend a birthday present. My cousin was on the vacation and she hand-paints water-bottles and large cups (Bubba's they are called). Anyway, I bought some "bubba's" and asked her to paint one for me and one for my boyfriend..I picked out some really cute things to put on his cup. It took a while to get them, they arrived yesterday.
So, now I have a cup that was intended for my ex..it is personalized and done really well. SO, my dilemma today was do I contact him and tell him I am dropping it off? Do I not contact and just drop off? Do I drop off and write a nice note or a crappy note, or no note?" Hmm, so I have been thinking about his all day. I talked to a nurse friend of mine, sharing my dilemma with her, she later talks to me and says "I am really worried about you if you deliver it, I think you should keep it and donate it or put it away". I told her I would think about it. I was 5 miles from his house..I was thinking.
Long story short..I did not drop it off, didn't write a note, didn't text him to let him know I had it, decided to keep it and not deliver it, not text him, not drive by his house, just kept focused and drove to my next work stop. I cried all the way to my next stop, but i know that if I had done any of those things..I would be set back by weeks, and I am not willing to go backwards at this point. My friend was very proud of me and I was too. I knew that having any contact would be detrimental to my recovery. I DID IT..I left him alone,,fighting that urge is huge for me. I gained so much today!!
This past summer I was on vacation with my family and I wanted to get my boyfriend a birthday present. My cousin was on the vacation and she hand-paints water-bottles and large cups (Bubba's they are called). Anyway, I bought some "bubba's" and asked her to paint one for me and one for my boyfriend..I picked out some really cute things to put on his cup. It took a while to get them, they arrived yesterday.
So, now I have a cup that was intended for my ex..it is personalized and done really well. SO, my dilemma today was do I contact him and tell him I am dropping it off? Do I not contact and just drop off? Do I drop off and write a nice note or a crappy note, or no note?" Hmm, so I have been thinking about his all day. I talked to a nurse friend of mine, sharing my dilemma with her, she later talks to me and says "I am really worried about you if you deliver it, I think you should keep it and donate it or put it away". I told her I would think about it. I was 5 miles from his house..I was thinking.
Long story short..I did not drop it off, didn't write a note, didn't text him to let him know I had it, decided to keep it and not deliver it, not text him, not drive by his house, just kept focused and drove to my next work stop. I cried all the way to my next stop, but i know that if I had done any of those things..I would be set back by weeks, and I am not willing to go backwards at this point. My friend was very proud of me and I was too. I knew that having any contact would be detrimental to my recovery. I DID IT..I left him alone,,fighting that urge is huge for me. I gained so much today!!
