new post for deb

Hi I am Deb, just writing on this makes tears come to my eyes. I have suffered years of emotional abuse and after 19 years of marriage he divorced me. Of course the abuse continued even though i moved 150 miles away and have custody of our 3 children, ,but over the 7 years after divorce the abuse turned to financial, verbal and finally physical. He is a lawyer and has me in court often. I have PTSD. He has bipolar disorder. The more I ignore him the worse he gets. He assaulted me in a McDonalds in front of 30 people while doing the parenting exchange of our youngest. 3 men had to pull him off me. He was in jail but the state bar association did not take his law license away. The local friend of the court continues to let him file law suit after suit against me. And once I get to court he asks for the case to be dismissed. It is creepy, like he only goes to court so he can see me. I am always scared and worried. Two of our children are now over 18 and the youngest is 16. I keep thinking I only have 2 more years to go and I am free. But deep inside I know he is a sick man and may continue to try to access me. I want to run away as far as I can and never look back, but I have a good job and want to take care of my 3 daughters. The PTSD is triggered every time I have to deal with him in anyway. I ama good person and a year ago met a gentle kind man. I am afraid to marry him because my ex husband may go even more crazy.... what am I to do?