CAUGHT YET AGAIN Oct 17, 2017 23:01:01 GMT via mobile
Post by xmas13 on Oct 17, 2017 23:01:01 GMT
What a complete fool I feel, abused yet again. I was doing so well, hence I havnt been on here for a few months. After the last throwing me out the car, almost killing us both, that was the final straw for me. I have 2 children and 2 grandchildren and I just couldn’t take anymore. I blocked him and tried to move on. Forward and it’s our anniversary and I have sleepless nights on what do I do. We all ways promised that what ever the circumstances we would always meet at the same spot at the same time.... I just couldn’t. It has taken so much work, tears self care to get to where I was, I had to make a stand and I didn’t go !!! But I was a mess that day. I took him off block the day before thinking he will text to say he won’t be there, he didn’t !! On the day 15 min after I should have been there he text 1 kiss, nothing else only that, I broke my heart and felt awful. I was strong and didn’t respond. I have my best friend back and she has been such a support, I callled her and bawled my eyes out. That evening he sent me an email full of how hurt he was, not angry just totally devastated!!!! I broke my heart again. It took 2 weeks for me to respond I just could not leave it !! Fast forward we talked text back and forward then nothing !! I blocked him again !! Fast forward again and I get an email a week ago, 8 weeks since the last contract. Full of bullshit pure and utter lies just bullshite, but I fell for it AGAIN !!! We met up and he almost caused a crash, he called me a liar he demanded I no longer meet my accountant, I do not move my business, I stop working so much and I tell a friend male that I lied to him about my ex stalking me..... I hung up the phone as I was in tears after only 48 hours of this monster and right there was the real reason he contacted me for me to make a complete arse of myself, to lie to someone I had been honest with all to save his ego !!!!! My gut was right, from the start I just knew there was more to his contact !!! Well ladies I have I am very proud to say I feel finally booted this monster out of my life and this time I feel so so strong and confident I could run around so happy that I can now after 9 years of emotional and physical ABUSE, made to feel I didn’t matter and a trillion other soul and spirt murder TURNED THAT CORNER AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT MONSTER COULD SAY OR DO THAT WOULD CHANGE MY MIND, nothing !!!! I have blocked him today at 9 am before I went to my breakfast meeting with my accountant and at that meeting I was relaxed, elated and held my head up high because with not much interaction form that monster my turn over, net profit for this year has rocketed !!! So be strong ladies, you can do this it’s not easy and I am all to aware of the sick tummy feelings when we revert back to how we perceived it to be, sorry but it wasn’t what we thought it was, we were all being played by a real life MONSTER !! Finally he said to me quote !” If I ever find out you have been bad mouthing me, trust me it will be the last thing you do” my reply calmly !!! Karma, and you will and have done that all by yourself, I don’t have to say a word !!! But I await that phone call from your next VICTIM !! His face was going to explode !!!!!