Post by confused on Dec 19, 2013 16:30:24 GMT
Hello to All,
Yesterday I met with an outreach worker from Womens Aid, this was the first time I have and really the first time I have freely opted to and spoken to someone about the domestic violence. Its become my dirty big secret, and somehow overtime and with help from its owner, I have twisted the reality of it and concluded that I am the monster, derserving of everything bad, and that it wasnt really as severe as im been told etc etc. Social services called a child protection meeting regarding my son and consequently he was put on the list to safeguard him from the DV. Whilst we didnt cohabit, he lives only minutes away and we saw eahcother regularly, he professed, for our sons sake. So for the last 24months at least ive been caught up in the chaotic whirlwind that was him and his insults (subtle) malicious nature (disguised with many masks), controlling manipulative behaviour and thrills he got from humiliating me and instilling fear. Being attached to an array of intense emotions, all varying in degree but all felt strongly and often simultaeneously was my normality far from normal. As of 19th Nov he has no contact with our son, I finally got the courage to do what should have been done from the start, (the advice of Social Services). I actively bidding on properties to relocate and hope to rebuild my life...... He started to stalk me on 21stNov, whistling in garden at 2am in shadows etc all subtle, devious psychological things. Heres to moving!! God Bless All
Yesterday I met with an outreach worker from Womens Aid, this was the first time I have and really the first time I have freely opted to and spoken to someone about the domestic violence. Its become my dirty big secret, and somehow overtime and with help from its owner, I have twisted the reality of it and concluded that I am the monster, derserving of everything bad, and that it wasnt really as severe as im been told etc etc. Social services called a child protection meeting regarding my son and consequently he was put on the list to safeguard him from the DV. Whilst we didnt cohabit, he lives only minutes away and we saw eahcother regularly, he professed, for our sons sake. So for the last 24months at least ive been caught up in the chaotic whirlwind that was him and his insults (subtle) malicious nature (disguised with many masks), controlling manipulative behaviour and thrills he got from humiliating me and instilling fear. Being attached to an array of intense emotions, all varying in degree but all felt strongly and often simultaeneously was my normality far from normal. As of 19th Nov he has no contact with our son, I finally got the courage to do what should have been done from the start, (the advice of Social Services). I actively bidding on properties to relocate and hope to rebuild my life...... He started to stalk me on 21stNov, whistling in garden at 2am in shadows etc all subtle, devious psychological things. Heres to moving!! God Bless All