Post by 72paul on Jan 24, 2021 22:57:22 GMT
Hello new to this forum don't really know where to start or what to say, this is really hard for me, I am a man if you can call me that was in a 20 year relationship with my wife we have 2 children 16 and 19 until last year I didn't know I was really been abused I thought it was all normal relationship stuff I suffered emotional, physically, financial, mental abuse I only became aware it wasn't normal after the police became involved to cut a long story short I had to go to court to remove her from the house as she refused to leave my children stayed with me, after a few months I became so ill seeing things hearing things and blaming my self for my family breakdown and guilt believed I should be punished that I ended off in hospital for a month.
I was diagnosed with multiple Truamas and PTSD, depression and anxiety.
I was just given tablets and a cpn worker but they do little for me and I have found been a man that there is little help I can find it's like we should suck it up this makes me feel very bitter and angry because I just want to understand why me why did I think it was normal but most of all I'm scared of been alone not been able to trust again and worried that the past will effect any relationship in the future, some days I feel like ending it all because it would be better than feeling all this pain the flash backs the nightmares what makes my story even worse is for 27 years until last year I was a doorman a guy who could handle situations but not his own personal life.
I was diagnosed with multiple Truamas and PTSD, depression and anxiety.
I was just given tablets and a cpn worker but they do little for me and I have found been a man that there is little help I can find it's like we should suck it up this makes me feel very bitter and angry because I just want to understand why me why did I think it was normal but most of all I'm scared of been alone not been able to trust again and worried that the past will effect any relationship in the future, some days I feel like ending it all because it would be better than feeling all this pain the flash backs the nightmares what makes my story even worse is for 27 years until last year I was a doorman a guy who could handle situations but not his own personal life.