Post by purple76 on Sept 10, 2017 20:48:43 GMT
I am a 25yo woman and sadly still living with my parents; I developed agoraphobia after going through a whole plethora of abuse and trauma since I was a child (approx 9). Despite my telling trusted adults or authorities (police etc) NOTHING was ever done. I never got justice, and thus I became a recluse.
Now, I quite literally cannot leave the house.
I have a therapist that comes here every Thursday and have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD and BPD. I suffer from dreadful panic attacks, have developed germ-specific OCD as a result, and after being put down my entire life, I hate myself completely.
I have NO confidence left whatsoever, and have self harmed and attempted suicide before.
My dad is just VILE to me. He knows what I've been diagnosed with, but still implies that I'm "mental" and "f***ed in the head", saying I'll be "carted off in the back of a van in a straight jacket", and other things. He constantly puts me down due to having mental illnesses, and has literally said I'm "making them up" despite my official diagnoses!? He calls me every vile name under the sun, makes threats of violence, death threats, gets in my face and has been violent with me before.
Police have done nothing, and he started this behaviour when I was a teenager and has beaten me up on several occasions yet when I told someone, they assumed I was "making it up for attention" because I was the "quiet goodie-goodie" so therefore I just wanted attention!?!? I stopped telling people for years, but now I've spoken out again.
He literally thinks he's right all the time, he feels no remorse or guilt for what he inflicts upon me, insists he's the victim in all of this and that I'm to blame for quite literally everything!
I used to work, but now I physically cannot go out even up the road, so he uses my lack of employment against me too. Calls me a loser, waste of space, useless...Constantly says "of course you can go out!" And claims I'm "loving" this and that somehow it's "convenient" for me!? He's blooming deluded!
Every therapist I've ever had including my current one agrees that he has some kind of narcissistic disorder and possibly sociopathy, but he refuses to acknowledge anything he does to me! He just can't EVER be wrong, apparently. He thinks he's always right! And then the hypocrisy is, the accuses ME of doing the same, when he quite literally IS wrong about me! He's a typical bigot and abuser. But refuses to see it and refuses to get help. He's happiest making me more and more miserable. I swear I may actually just kill myself.
I'm trapped where I am with no escape, and nobody can help me. Or even wants to.
He's sick in the head...It's just too much.
Sorry this is so long but I can't keep this in anymore! Surely if I'm diagnosed as a vulnerable person and he's a danger to me, SOMEONE can intervene and make him undergo a psychiatric assessment and anger management??? He needs something! It isn't all just me, and I'm already getting help, but he is a massive roadblock for me! He keeps knocking me down every time I think I'm getting somewhere
Now, I quite literally cannot leave the house.
I have a therapist that comes here every Thursday and have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD and BPD. I suffer from dreadful panic attacks, have developed germ-specific OCD as a result, and after being put down my entire life, I hate myself completely.
I have NO confidence left whatsoever, and have self harmed and attempted suicide before.
My dad is just VILE to me. He knows what I've been diagnosed with, but still implies that I'm "mental" and "f***ed in the head", saying I'll be "carted off in the back of a van in a straight jacket", and other things. He constantly puts me down due to having mental illnesses, and has literally said I'm "making them up" despite my official diagnoses!? He calls me every vile name under the sun, makes threats of violence, death threats, gets in my face and has been violent with me before.
Police have done nothing, and he started this behaviour when I was a teenager and has beaten me up on several occasions yet when I told someone, they assumed I was "making it up for attention" because I was the "quiet goodie-goodie" so therefore I just wanted attention!?!? I stopped telling people for years, but now I've spoken out again.
He literally thinks he's right all the time, he feels no remorse or guilt for what he inflicts upon me, insists he's the victim in all of this and that I'm to blame for quite literally everything!
I used to work, but now I physically cannot go out even up the road, so he uses my lack of employment against me too. Calls me a loser, waste of space, useless...Constantly says "of course you can go out!" And claims I'm "loving" this and that somehow it's "convenient" for me!? He's blooming deluded!
Every therapist I've ever had including my current one agrees that he has some kind of narcissistic disorder and possibly sociopathy, but he refuses to acknowledge anything he does to me! He just can't EVER be wrong, apparently. He thinks he's always right! And then the hypocrisy is, the accuses ME of doing the same, when he quite literally IS wrong about me! He's a typical bigot and abuser. But refuses to see it and refuses to get help. He's happiest making me more and more miserable. I swear I may actually just kill myself.
I'm trapped where I am with no escape, and nobody can help me. Or even wants to.
He's sick in the head...It's just too much.
Sorry this is so long but I can't keep this in anymore! Surely if I'm diagnosed as a vulnerable person and he's a danger to me, SOMEONE can intervene and make him undergo a psychiatric assessment and anger management??? He needs something! It isn't all just me, and I'm already getting help, but he is a massive roadblock for me! He keeps knocking me down every time I think I'm getting somewhere