Post by Scoutingfordreams on Nov 15, 2016 2:08:06 GMT
Hi Nichole, I too am a survivor of both child abuse and relationship abuse. I was 'trained' to get used to it as the 'normal' way of life. I have been in three relationships. My first love kicked me and sent me flying. The second warned me he would slap me if I didn't stay quiet. The third whom I din't sleep with tried to arrange prostitution for me by arranging and taking money from men in a bid to break my virginity. The Fourth had sex with me when I was out of it on zopiclone and alcohol. Then lied about it, but I saw a used condom on my bedroom floor. He later went on to physically abuse me, grabbing my hands and throwing my across the room of my apartment. Hand's by your side he would say when we were out, I wasn't allowed touch him. It's been 9 years now, and I haven't dated anyone since. I stay here in my bedroom continually reliving the events of my life. I've given up trying to speak the truth to anyone who cares to listen. I just let it go now. I feel free now and just try to focus on Gods warmth. I have a long way to travel Nichole. But I have now reconciled and forgiven my parents. I'm having a good day today. I've just found this site Tuesday 15th Nov 2016. I'm listening to Tim Buckley. But you know what hurt the most.....no one believed me. Goodnight dear Nichole. And stay strong, channel your energy into you work. From a lonely Stranger.xx 
