Post by Packing on Aug 27, 2014 16:33:30 GMT
I called a shelter this morning. On their advice, I'm packing a bag for my daughter and me--just some essentials; I'll throw our clothes in when it's time to go--and getting our paperwork together, making copies, etc. He started in again last night with the accusations that I don't love him, that I want to take HIS daughter away from him, and it will never happen. He pushed me onto the bed, held me down and said, "Tell me I'm being paranoid." At that point I thought, he's going to hurt me no matter what I say. So I told him that I thought he was being paranoid, about this, about me wanting to leave. He made a fist and slammed it down on the nightstand right next to my head. I almost screamed and he said if I woke the kids, there would be hell to pay, and then, as if he wanted to test me, he kneed me right under my ribcage. It hurt so bad. I started crying and he kept growling at me, "Shut up, shut up! Stop crying!" Then he reared his arm back like he was going to hit me, but he stopped. He pushed himself off of me, said I wasn't worth it, and he left.
An hour later he came back and said he was SO SORRY. That he had the worst day and he knows I would never leave him. We had sex. I didn't want to, but I was too afraid of making him angry again to say no.
Tonight, I'm going to make him his favorite dinner, make sure the house is immaculate, whatever I have to do to make him think things are good again, and to get through the night. I'm also working on a letter to leave for my stepson, with the child abuse hotline number on it. I hope I can help him to understand why I had to go. I know he's not going to get the truth from his dad.
The shelter said I can call day or night, and they will send someone to pick me up. If it's from home, then it will have to be the police, but if I can go to a public place, away from my husband, then it will be someone from the shelter. I'm pretty sure it's going to be tomorrow morning. I just know this weekend is going to be hell if I stay. He's never attacked me this many times in such a short period, and I've never seen him that close to hitting me before. I am on pins and needles.
An hour later he came back and said he was SO SORRY. That he had the worst day and he knows I would never leave him. We had sex. I didn't want to, but I was too afraid of making him angry again to say no.
Tonight, I'm going to make him his favorite dinner, make sure the house is immaculate, whatever I have to do to make him think things are good again, and to get through the night. I'm also working on a letter to leave for my stepson, with the child abuse hotline number on it. I hope I can help him to understand why I had to go. I know he's not going to get the truth from his dad.
The shelter said I can call day or night, and they will send someone to pick me up. If it's from home, then it will have to be the police, but if I can go to a public place, away from my husband, then it will be someone from the shelter. I'm pretty sure it's going to be tomorrow morning. I just know this weekend is going to be hell if I stay. He's never attacked me this many times in such a short period, and I've never seen him that close to hitting me before. I am on pins and needles.