Post by karen on Mar 8, 2017 3:28:44 GMT
Hi all, I just need to post tonight. I went on social media and decided to look up the ex-abusive boyfriend. He has had me blocked for a while, so I wasn't expecting to see anything. Turns out, he must have just unblocked me because I can see all of his posts. We are not friends or anything, but nothing is hidden. When he and I were together, he hated that I was on FB and convinced me to "unfriend" relatives and friends he thought were a threat to our happiness. ALL of his posts make him look like a "normal" happy guy. He posted his opinion about politics, he is posting pictures of himself...many. He posts his trips and he is making jokes. AGAIN..when we were together he would complain about how much he didn't really like FB..but of course he would go on there and post stuff. I wasn't to post anything about him and I on FB, there were never any pictures of him and I or even any reference that I existed. He would occasionally say something if I posted something, but it was short and simple. It made me nervous, because I was expecting backlash from him.
So tonight, lots of pictures of him, one of him and his wife smiling and looking like the happy couple. Interesting, only one picture of the two of them, and many of just him.
So I just need to tell myself that this is "fake". I suspect he has looked at my FB page. AND I can't help but wonder if this is all in response to him seeing my posts and stuff. I don't have him blocked because I really don't care if he sees my stuff. I too have pictures of trips and my kids and me and my guy...about 5-6 pictures of my guy and I. Our family and friends responded to the pictures in a positive way. I am happy, and it is reflected on my FB page. There is NOTHING on my FB that even indicates he was ever in my life. NOTHING. So I can't help but draw a few conclusions. Maybe some of his posts are for my benefit???
I just have this very tiny voice inside me that says "maybe it really was me, maybe she (the current wife..the one he got after dumping me) really makes him happy and it was all my fault, all in my head, all my imagination??(the abuse, the problems..etc)" My head knows it isn't true, but my heart has it's doubts.
He still looks like a jerk to me, all I see is an abuser. A man who turns my stomach at the thought of him even remotely being a decent person. His FB page makes him look like a nice, normal kind of guy. I see the guy who ignored me, who would not talk to me for hours at a time, who accused me of really bad stuff, who with those accusations implied that I was slutty and a liar, and a hypocrite. AND the list goes on and on.
I know, please just tell me to take my own advice. Somedays, it is just hard talking myself out of all those negative thoughts. Thanks for listening everyone. She can't be happy with him...she just can't. Right? And he hasn't changed, he isn't decent all of a sudden..he is still a jerk, making himself out to be decent. UGH.
So tonight, lots of pictures of him, one of him and his wife smiling and looking like the happy couple. Interesting, only one picture of the two of them, and many of just him.
So I just need to tell myself that this is "fake". I suspect he has looked at my FB page. AND I can't help but wonder if this is all in response to him seeing my posts and stuff. I don't have him blocked because I really don't care if he sees my stuff. I too have pictures of trips and my kids and me and my guy...about 5-6 pictures of my guy and I. Our family and friends responded to the pictures in a positive way. I am happy, and it is reflected on my FB page. There is NOTHING on my FB that even indicates he was ever in my life. NOTHING. So I can't help but draw a few conclusions. Maybe some of his posts are for my benefit???
I just have this very tiny voice inside me that says "maybe it really was me, maybe she (the current wife..the one he got after dumping me) really makes him happy and it was all my fault, all in my head, all my imagination??(the abuse, the problems..etc)" My head knows it isn't true, but my heart has it's doubts.
He still looks like a jerk to me, all I see is an abuser. A man who turns my stomach at the thought of him even remotely being a decent person. His FB page makes him look like a nice, normal kind of guy. I see the guy who ignored me, who would not talk to me for hours at a time, who accused me of really bad stuff, who with those accusations implied that I was slutty and a liar, and a hypocrite. AND the list goes on and on.
I know, please just tell me to take my own advice. Somedays, it is just hard talking myself out of all those negative thoughts. Thanks for listening everyone. She can't be happy with him...she just can't. Right? And he hasn't changed, he isn't decent all of a sudden..he is still a jerk, making himself out to be decent. UGH.